I’m at 23 days of the Whole30 and I’m still alive, although days 11 through 15 were really tough. Days 11-15 felt like the scene in Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory where Gene Wilder is monolog-ging as they go through the tunnel of the chocolate version of the River Styx. In the background there are twilight zone hypnotic swirls and random images as Gene Wilder gets creepier and creepier. Mix that with full-blown Charlie Brown level of depression and you know what I was feeling. Overreacting? Don’t judge man; it’s a low place, just ask my wife.
The issue I was having was multi-leveled. One, I was so low from sugar withdrawal. Two, I was sick with some kind of flu thing which was really messing with my sleep. Three, and this was the weird one, I was depressed because I didn’t want to eat junk food. Yes, that’s right; I had no overwhelming desire for junk food and I was depressed about it. Sure a doughnut smelled good and getting down on some BDubs sounded delicious, but I didn’t really care if had it or not. Food has always been a comfort thing for me, like Linus’s blanket. I wanted to not feel so low anymore, but food wasn’t going to do it for me, not because I couldn’t have it, but because I didn’t want it. It’s hard to describe going from NEEDING some Ben and Jerry’s Coffee Ice Cream to just liking Ben and Jerry’s Coffee Ice Cream. I'm feeling free of food's control over me, but during days 11-15 it scared the heck out of me.
The good news is I have come out the other side of Mr. Wonka’s candy-coated acid trip and I’m feeling great. I’m not supposed to weigh myself until the end but I know I’ve lost weight, which has been good since my calf and foot are not 100% yet, so exercise is hard. I have no overwhelming need for sugar, although I have to admit a nice rich piece of New York cheesecake sounds pretty good. I have tons of energy and feel great. As my Whole 30 winds down I’ll need to figure out my next step, because I’m not doing this forever, but I also don’t want to live the way I was before either. Leave a comment and follow my blog here on BlogSpot. Until next time.
